This module is a plain waste of time. Im not feeling creative at all. I just threw out 10 ideas and continue surfing Safari. Jeremy said that if they took away all the weds modules, we would actually end in like. 2.5years instead of 3. Oh god im feeling so cranky that i forgot to look interested in whats going on.
Apparently the class has been viewing videos for like -
OH THANK GOD CLASS IS OVER. ABOUT TIME TO. 13 MINS EARLY ONLY AH KNN. SUPER FUCKING NABEI DE HUNGRY OKAY.
Halloween @ FC tonight with bestf. I just saw something from a blogspot. com, that made me almost laugh out loud in class (which laughing is quite hard to do) in turn, this day is looking up up up. Alrighto i need to home to change and gain back the calories i didnt lose during gym this morning. Im sleepy, BYEXZXZXZXXZ!
(11:44:00 AM)
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Whole to ashes in 17hours. Add another 12 burnt from inside.
Nothing, absolutely nothing means anything to me anymore. Not even what i thought i held so dear. Cares are turned into lies. There is something seriously wrong now for all i feel like doing is to cry. For the first time in my life, im fine with being this family, even 24/7.
(1:42:00 AM)
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Guess today's a day filled with calls and thanks to god.
Started the day with a call from Jas confirming time and place to meet. Call from mummy to confirm time to meet. Called upon reaching town. Received a call. Called Comfort Call to Shanghai to my uncle Call to relatives. Call from God at 18.56
Thank god that im with Jas Thank god for not prolonging what suddenly came Thank god that this family planned to go today Thank god for letting me hold up unti we entered the cab Thank god for giving me a real reason to cry Thank god that circumstances deterred me from going to Malaysia for the camp Thank god for giving me strength especially in the form of Thia, Bestf, Melly and Jacky.
Thank god for letting me realise that somethings just cant wait That those tt could wait, have waited for far too long and would leave in time. That some, just arent worth you pursuing for, and in turn neglecting others.
It was anticipated. For quite sometime now. However we just didnt expect that it would this soon. We thought that he would at least hold up till his youngest returned from Shanghai.
Dear god, wasnt it just yesterday tt i just knelt down in front of you for a prayer? Seems like just yesterday too, when i remember him ringing our doorbell, just to pass us a talisman he specially got for our new house, blessed by the temple. The mere thought of him travelling the long distance from Bedok to Amk ALONE always makes me hate myself (even more now). Every saturday during dinner, he'll have always already finished with his dinner for he has dinner early and my family would always be too late. However, he'll sit at his usual chair, all the way at the back of the living room asking us to help ourselves to all the food, and to eat more.
My heart never seems to hold up at the thought that I never got to say hello. For weeks i did not visit when i could. Every sat i was just held up with something or another. Overnight KAH planning, stayovers, camp. My brother went back on the previous saturday, but i was too burned out from camp and had on something else to busy with tt i couldnt even visit. My parents went yesterday, without me knowing. That was why all of us made plans to go today.
We were on the way there. Everyone from my aunties to my mummy, daddy and brother, to jas and i. I guess somethings just couldnt wait, couldnt wait, couldnt wait.
Wasnt this just last year on the 27th of May? Dear god, im too old for a funeral now.
(11:23:00 PM)
Just two days and i feel like i havent been updating for ages. Bought back macaroons from Bakerzin today, after bestf's widespread raving about how good it was, for the family. And i tell you, no wonder she raved all about it. Its like the best dessert ever la omg omg omg. Family said it "was okay"........ And took another piece. Idiots hahaha. Promised them tt i'll get Carousel @ RP (Royal Plaza) ones to try soon as bestf tried my Bakerzin ones and said tt Carousel was 56789123456789123456789987654321, alright you get the point, times better. So how could i just let them (and myself) just stop at Bakerzin, deprived of a ride on a Carousel?!!!!
Might get it tmr since im hitting town with Minny the cuzzy since school's out on Thurs, thank god for tt. Am not gonna shop since nothing would fit me now :| Meeting my mummy after her work and heading down to GH to pay a visit to my granddaddy. Things arent looking up up up.
Had gym orientation today for Sports and Wellness (S&w). And i thought tt gym was relaxed and fun. Never in my dreams did i think tt it would turn out to be like.....
"Need to parallel your knee to this, else your knee would break. Your back be careful not to extend over tt point, or your spine would snap. Towel should cover seat lest the person before you has a contagious skin disease. Exhale when exerting else too much pressure on veins and arteries and it might snap in a long run causing stroke...."
This. Nabei can imagine bestf's and my face during tt two hours anot hahahahahahahaha. Then bestf said "Wahlau eh. By the time i prepare and make sure everything aligned two hours already" HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA. Steady steady steady hahahahaha, inside joke la.
Being in the gym makes me want to work out (wanted to add a more behind but it'll be inappropriate as you all know -.-) Thought out a new schedule for the week during my bathtime. Lets just hope i stick to it, which is really the tough part since im the nua-est person alive.
Had a three hour break in between CATS and gym thus. Cabbed back home to get my shoebag and shirt to trade with Jeremy. Then met Thia at Amkhub. Thank god he ends at 12.30? On Weds. Swee yay yay yay! Tt asshole said "Wah next time every weds after lecture off phone" Asshole.
Did i mention tt bestf and i went to Novena church for a little prayer session before we left to walk around? Weirdly, it was a rather calming session. The church reminded me of chapel hour back in PHS. To think of it, i kinda miss PHS... And tts really weird.
Alright im so sorry tt my thoughts for this entry are so random but im just typing as things come. Probably too burned out, school's wearing me out and its only week one (two technically).
Look at how cute this is. Sheepy handmade these for her module in NIE la can. So amazing. Eh Winnie Leong the sheep. HANDMADE, WEAVED OKAY. There're even different names for the weave though it all looks the same to me hahaha! She did a bunch so here're some pics she sent!
Cramps are fucking killing me and i feel like reading a book. Library@Orchard tmr probably. Should i get macaroons for the family tmr or for the clique on Sat, hmmmm.
(2:57:00 AM)
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Thia: "Eh did you know tt Toastbox is under Breadtalk?" Me:" Huh? Yeah la. You mean you didnt know? Stupid leh" Thia: "No i didnt! I just knew it, like just, today only la! But you know ah, can know once you look at it!" Me: "Look at what?!" Thia: "You come you come you see you see!"
Toastbox UNDER Breadtalk.
...........
Seriously i was so speechless that i just said "I'll have to take a pic and blog about this" and him being the loser refused to lend me his Sony k800i Cybershot therefore, i had to resort to my pathetic Nokia which, I do not particulary like very much.
Forgot to unzoom after the taking the stupid sign, Better!
First day of school pics when i get them from Bestf tmr! Meanwhile if your really anxious you could check out her livejournal, hah.
Am experiencing the worst of moods and moodswings therefore please put up with me if i piss you off anytime soon. Bestf, clique especially and anyone else i say thank you and i love you very super the much now beforehand. Shall join my brother in watching Spiderman (I dont goddamn know which volume he's replaying tonight) to make myself sleepier.
(2:21:00 AM)
Monday, October 22, 2007
Hey lo hey lo hey lo. In locvid lecture now. Planning with Bestf where to run to (to eat) during the upcoming 3hour break. God 3 frickin hours okay. Home cannot, sleep cannot. Hmmm hmmm hmmm so anyway!
Long overdue pics and updates as promised!
First up, Training Camp (October) 2007 Second night, when all the campers and almost everyone else left back for school or home. With Bahtera occupied with only Thia, Jacky, Reggy, Willy, Brendy and i (plus maybe the camp supervisor or something), we got Room 1 to ourselves, ourselves and ourselves! Aircon, beds, pillows, SWEE!
Naturally us, being us, talked crap and pissed the shit outta everyone possible in the room then knocked out around 11plus. Judging from the fact tt everyone left around 9, 9plus. We did take quite awhile. So whilst waiting for hair and whatsnot to dry, pics pics pics! Asked him to help us take yet look what we ended up with -.- Idiot right hahaha. Willy is an idiot (sings) I took the upper deck, well i had to! I never had the chance to sleep on a double decker okay! Like a full fledged double decker as my dad always insisted tt either my brother or i would die... Brendy took the bottom. Bitch climbed up to camwhore and talk a little before knocking out. I know the position seems kinda wrong but i plead for you to look carefully, haha! Bitch :D Okay like i said. We pissed the shit outta everyone, talked shit then knocked out right. Well in Thia's case. He knocked out straightaway, then got pissed by me hahahaha! Look at him all knocked out and dead. Oh, his upper mattress got stolen by Brendy. Everyone say, bitch. Goodanight! Cannot hang bra to dry meh. Dont dry there you tell me dry where. Somemore all so close already, besides. Everyone's too tired to notice la. Oh oh oh oh oh! This reminds me of this superrrrrr funny wakeup line Willy used.
Willy (17th oct morning): "Knnb Kailing! I morning wake up, open eyes first thing see is your bra la, fuck."
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA YOU HEAR THIS ALREADY MORNING NOT AWAKE ALSO LAUGH UNTIL AWAKE OKAY! Reggy, fit ah. Emo emo HAHAHAHA. Jacky was in the room too but he was busy helping me take pics tt i forgot to take him :| paiseh la love love HAHAHA.
Fast forward to last day of Adventure Camp, 19th October! Gary the idiot was supposed to take a class pic for 2Agape but tt motherfucker ah $!%#!%^! Im still in the shot! Yay!
Class for Sec 2 Adventure Camp 2007 - 2Agape, swee! I have no idea why my position was so weird. Guess it was kinda impromtu. Still weird. Kay la better la better. Swee!
Alright why swee right? Introducing the 2Agape cheer(s):
Me:D : 2A give me one 2A clap! 2A: (clap clap) Swee!
HAHAHAHAHA SWEE SWEE SWEE!
Clique dinner at Thai Restaurant at Chong Pang after any hugeass activity.
After June 30th event.
Same place, around the same time, after Training & Adventure Camp 2007, swee!
Found this in my cam when i finally (as according to Thia) uploaded it. June 30th, KAH Selection Day family photo! Nice right nice right heh heh heh!
Bestf, thanks! (L)
Im astounded at the lashings i read. The only reason behind the sudden outlash = You held it in for too long. So we did not? I dont wish to justify myself anymore for i really tried my best that night at dinner. I tried to hold it all in. Yes i know tt i got irritated unneccesarily and im really apologetic for tt. But not everyone deserves what you said from your point of view. I doubt your a farshot from us so please. Do not deam -
/ Stopped
Went for a walk around campus with Bestf. Am feeling ten thousand times better. So i shant continue on lest i hurt anyone. You've always been a close friend. I have no idea what we'll still be, we being everyone of us i think. Well. I still be here as a friend for you, now or always.
Alrighto. 3hour break. Zaijianxzxzxz
(8:23:00 AM)
Im back back back back back!!!! (Like three days ago but, point aside)
School's starting tmr. Well it technically started a week ago but i left for camp soooooo. It officially starts tmr tmr tmr.
And guess what....... I really really really do not feel like going. Its 2.51am and 2 people are chasing me to sleep. Wanted to upload pics, tried two times the server got so fucked up. Will upload and blog in school tmr instead.
Still suffering from the after-effects of camp thus. Im burned out by now. Meeting bestf at 7.10am. I cannot be late, read cannot. 8am class = God in Heaven, above and all around please send help to down below.
(2:29:00 AM)
Sunday, October 14, 2007
Love love love, byeeeeeeeee!
(9:17:00 PM)
Hello world! I've got no fucking idea why im updating now, at this point of time when im supposed to be asleep instead, since camp's a day away and we're having a pre-camp aka movie marathon at Pinwen's this evening, wheeeeee cant wait cant wait. Will be back only on Friday, 19th October, no updates till then! Text or call me if anything :D Might get back to you late though.
Probably im overly hyped about finally realising that mac isnt all about Safari. And tt i have Firefox too, and voila! My blogger navigation pane's back. So yes yes yes. I can adjust the font sixe (again) so tell me if you all think tt its gonna cause all of you myopia of something for i just realised tt my font is indeed puny. Hahahaha! Shall take back what i said about not going to change my font size so so so. Tell me if you want it biggerrrrrrr :D
This morning, this being 13th of October, Saturday. Decided against sleeping, prepped at 7plus AM and headed for AMK Polyclinic for my mc for im really not feeling well :( (HEH) Sat there like a receptionist for an hour with all the ahmas and ahgongs, for they all were coming to me asking if the clinic opens at 8am and stuff. Hello, patient / coughs coughs very sick.
22mins past 8am for what seemed like an eternity, this woman finally came up to the clinic and unlocked a side door! God you have no idea how relieved i was. Thanked god like mad. Ahmas and ahgongs rushed up and realised something weird. They all seemed to turn away and look grumpy. Took off my earphones and decided to ask the lady instead.
ME:D : "Hi, you all are open today right?" Woman: "No no. We dont open on public holidays" ME:D : (Stunned tio already) "Sorry?" Women: " We do NOT open on public holidays. Today's Hari Raya. Go private clinic!"
OH GODDDDDDDDDDDDD. I cant believe i just sat there for an hour and forgo-ed sleep! URGH %!$@#%^!#$!^% Did i say tt i thanked god when she opened the side door? Well you can pretty much guess the aftermath :| Got so pissed tt i forgot i was pissed with Thia and texted him -.- -.- -.- Will settle my mc at a clinic near Pinwen's tmr and hopefully i get all three days hmmmm.
Went down to the shelter beneath my block to find 3groups painting their flags. Sat around, irritated everyone then left to meet Vanessa back at PHS to settle logs stuff. Called Weiling and Pinwen down to help us, both physically and financially hahahaha. Deposited everything at Weiling's place. Guess we're going there at 6plusAM on Monday :/
Met Thia they all back at AMK for dinner at Sumo :D It should be nominated as the clique's favourite place to dine at AMK, hah. Thia left his group flag at my place. Coming up to collect it and leave his bigass bag here at 2PM this afternn. Its 8AM now. And i know for sure i wont be awake when he comes. (Haiyah ask my fatass brother pass him la. Since they're both so in love with each other -.-)
Came back to my area and sat at a void deck and chatted hours away. I still love everyone :D Oh! Did i ever mention tt i did a card for Thia during Handover 2005? He brought it along today and i had to take pics of it!
TADAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!
The back, Inside content. Knowing me. I super lor sor, you seriously thought i could make do with a page?!!!!!!
OF COURSE I HAD TO ADD ON ANOTHER FULL FLEDGED PAGE! Part two leh siao siao. Had to blur it cause. I cant possibly the contents out, can i! It was this card tt made me wither of embarrassment as Andrew took the card and started "giving" it out to people saying "Welcome to Chunfu and Kailing's wedding! Here's the invitation" Omg i tell you. I almost died. I swear i was soooooo embarrassed tt i couldnt even react. Ran away and acted busy in the end. Super paiseh. If it happened now, got this feeling tt we'll both play along, as per the years before hahahahaha! (And if you're waiting for the front. I cant seem to find it. Think i deleted it or forgot to take hahahahaha!)
Had to pack for the camp today for we're leaving for the clique's pre-camp at Pinwen's tmr! So here's Kailing's steps to packing for a camp 101!
Step One: Lay out all of your needed clothes for the camp.
Step Two: When everything's out, fold it neatly to ease process of fitting it into camp bag.
Step Three: Make a list (Before or after you lay out the clothes is fine) and then compare to the stuff you've laid out. Remember to state what you already have and what you dont (such as toothbrushes) for last minute packing.
Step Four: With everything accounted for, transder belongings into bag, making sure all's neat and uncreased! (Uh pardon the two packets. Blame Sheepy! She told me to bring more!)
Step Five: If another bag is needed, such as a pouch as shown below. Pack it too to avoid panic at the last minute!
Step Six: Place stuff in compartments and take necessary precautions for safeguarding it, if needed! (Pretty ziplock bags to keep my notebook dry heh heh heh)
Step Six: Other compartments.
Step Seven: If a bimbo. decorate your pouch or identify it. Place your amulet/cross for religion purposes, so on and so forth. (BESTF!!!!!!! IM BRINGING ALONG THE CHARM!!!! :D Its gonna be in the compartment so it wouldnt be misplaced even if loose hahaha!)
AND TADAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!! A last minute grab and your good to go! Alright these are just my procedures. You can use your own way if its faster or whats not. No need to die on me :D
Crashing my bed now, yippee yeah yeah yippee yippee yeah!
NO, you didnt see wrongly. Its Pinwen and me (and my pjs). If you know Pinwen, you'll know tt he likes to share stories (or tts what he calls it) from his experiences. And most of the time, the stories are so unbelievable such as catching a hugeass snake along the road at midnight and stuff that people tend to doubt him.
This kuku had to call me at like. 5plus to tell me about something tt happened. AT 5PLUS AM. Came over to borrow my Nokia charger for a, pretty good reason and to make me alibi for his "story" this round. Pic at 6.10AM, hah.
Dad just caught me awake, for the ten thousandth time. Thia at two's almost impossible. On top of tt, i'll have to wake Pinwen up now. Great.
There's no concrete proof that this would be the last. Nor is it confirmed tt you're leaving. But whats confirmed is that this is the last for most people. Next year's A levels, then the guys are heading off for National Service. So many people are giving up so much for it. Chief and Ops have to skip two days of uni. Most excuse letters arent accepted so i guess we're all skipping without a reason. If possible, mc to backup. Skipping the first week, leaving bestf alone. I would feel the same way as her, or even worse if she were to do this to me. Im sorry, i really am. (L) Thanks for understanding anyway :D
Leave's are running dry, yet some are still trying to take off to make it for a day or two. We've been through so many changes, so much shit that i never thought would happen, we're here. Finally here.
With the promises bleak and unknown, lets just all do what we do best. Just making the best out of what we have and making more best of each batch to come. (No tt wasnt a typo. Would get it if you knew what i meant) I dont wanna leave with a heavy heart so.
Three photos, three words we are.
High Performance Team - With Pride We Lead, With Humility We Serve
