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Ah Xiong. Ahyi. Anadee. Anet. Bailin. Baoyun. Bestf. Brenda. Caleb. Cheyenne. Clarence. Eve. F.Thia. Fiona. Fishy. Gary. Jack. Janelle. Jeremy. Jiajun. Jill. Jocelyn. Joyce. Joyce Khoo. June. Kailin. Kezia. Meiearn. Melly. Phebe. Pinwen. Shimin. Sinhui. Sweekoon. Uvphs. Wenqi. Wilson Neo. Winnie. Xiaomin. Xingjie. Yanmei. Yanyi.

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DAMN! i forgot the nail polish remover for my table! AHHH! darns. ah wells. it wont kill. HAHAHA. its nice graffitti anyways. heh. x) but still @!#$%^@!^@!!!
i might not be sleeping during periods later. not tired though i slept at three plus last night. (: whats seriously wrong with me? hahaha. but i wont be surprised if i DO fall asleep later. heh. nothing's for sure. okay okay. i shall REALLY stop blogging now before i cant publish this post. recess in ten mins! yays. mousy's doing pumpings. x)
oh wells. loves(:

(10:27:00 AM)

SHIT. my previous entry wasnt saved. RWAHHS. so frickin pissed. alrights.
was just blogging bout my new pillowcase(: hahaha. damn. so addicted to the scent. HAHAHA. but i do hope tt they dont suspect anything funny with it though. sheesh. ah. ewk. nvm. heh.
so miss lim ish beside me and im blogging. DOTS. hahaha. ah wells. today's f&n isnt a drag, AT ALL. surprisingly. got some research done. with music. HAHAHA. ahyi's singing, apparently, to adriano's jia gei wo. DAMN. regret dropping it into her thumbdrive. wahahs. (: hmmm. now i find five periods pass so quickly. ah shucks. hahaha. the guys are doing so many pumpings due to their coarse language. arseholes, bastards, fucks. HAHAHA. and no, i didnt get into trouble. please. i dont scold vulgarities(:
OKAY. miss lim saw me blogging and gave me the GLARE already. shucks. heh. alrights. gtg. recess soon(: cant wait. wahahs. BYES<3!

(9:54:00 AM)

ah wells. same routine. blogging at three plus cause of f&n. but hey! its different now. at least i already finished what im supposed to do, interview, survey and the task analysis. okay. tt isnt perfect but wells. must redo.
tired but i shall finish blogging then retire for the day.
chapel was kinda fun. till the person started the sermon agn. haha. ah wells. routine. fishy and huisian stood up for the true or false questions and won their "ZING-ZING" lime green tees. hah. and they were beside me. like AH lahhs. but it was cute. HEH. and i think the guy thought tt it was me who stood up cause he threw shirt at me or maybe us. whatever. was falling asleep already and told me not to cover my face. FUCK. okay. i shall not use vulgarities or rather, fucks for this post since ____(: said tt i cant blog without fucks. (:
was doodling on my table with huisian's liquid paper. HAHAHA. had <39116339 etc. written in corners. hahaha. (: ugly. remember to bring nail polish remover to remove it. and do a better job this time(: but not so many already lahhs.
recess was. i dunno. sighs. there are and always had problems but only a few face to face talks. i cn still remember the one last year. OMG. didnt exactly work out. there are always stuffs to settle but somehow, the words seem to vanish when we want to. ah. i dunno. everyone has harsh tones tts why im not remotely pissed at anyone or anything now. and i think tt eve ish so true bout the we dont hate but its just a passing phrase of god-im-frickin-pissed-at-you-now thing. refer to her tt post if you want to. it kinda pains me when i see each day passing by knowing tt its our last year together yet the problems are carried forward within our inner being since 2003. tts like. three years ago. with somethings surfacing today, it got me thinking if we could still graduate as i thought we could. would we still run into each other's arms after the graduation ceremony and after the o's results? or would we just give each other a false smile that says i-dont-care-if-your-emo-but-get-out-of-my-way-now? but thinking agn bout all tt we've gone through these three plus years, the first ish most likely to happen(: maybe this ish just a passing phrase or its building up to somehting large. i dunno. i dont even think tt you get what im typing about but these are just random thoughts tt just needs to flow out. ah wells. sometimes its also a blessing not to know so much. HMMM. (:
i needa send my neeon for servicing. like f___. nvm. its screwed like hell. it starts up and stucks at the creative sign there. and i already restarted it dozens of times but its useless. yes, USELESS. OMG. and i just realised tt i cant even transfer the files to my com. say goodbye to my 600songs cause i guess they'll give me a replacement. going with aiai to marina square to get it serviced or replacement. ah. think hers ish also screwed. thank god tt i still have the downloads here. its just the songs from the cds. RWAHHS. headache. think im not ripping the songs from the cds already. so mafan. ah wells. see my mood(:
f&n in 4hrs and 15mins tims. >,<>
sorry for lying, ___(: now i feel bad. whats wrong with me?


(3:04:00 AM)

i know its late but ah wells. im just here to say thanks to jack for this ;



(12:13:00 AM)

oh fuck fuck fuck. i wanted to blog bout how much i hated my parents cause of what happened this am. but now? my mum just gave me $50 to buy my creative speakers. tried to push it back but she told me to get it. so fuck. HOW?! and my anger's subsiding. man. does this mean tt i cn be brought over by money? damn. but i dont wanna take bribes. but she's my mum. so its perfectly legal to use her money. right? as long as it aint my dad. urgh. whatever. so. i shall use the money to buy it later. making a trip over to marina square. hmmm. now tts far. then join failure and reagen at northpoint bk for group study. i wanna do my maths. eh! im determined okay!
last night. i dunno what to say about it. but i wrote it all down cause i couldnt blog. and no. im not typing it out. tts so fake. so now then i realise tt my life ish classified into bills. telephone, specs. so my life ish an expense to you? your daughter turned into an expense tt you have to keep paying? a burden ladened onto you? so your screamed at me not to read in the dark ish cause i'll occur another expense for you to make me new specs?so. its perfectly alright tt you wake me up with your screaming, ear shattering and annoying naggings at 3.45am when i already hung up hrs ago? and i cant just slam the door? i get slapped and practically dragged out of bed? shouted and hollered at? wake up cause my its my o's year? thanks alot dad. goddamn it. i cant wait for the time till i get outta this hse. im gonna move out as soon as its legal to. and with the blood flowing down from my inner cheek tt would form an ulcer in days. thanks agn for your perfect little gift from the memory of last night.
so fuck. now what do i do with the $50 tt i just got frm my mum?! anyway. she wont take it back cause i just had another try to push it back to her. so now what? buy it? (: ah fuck.
anyway. i shall use big **** for all i like(: you aint exactly a perfect role model you know? (: LOVE YA.
i wanna say a big thanks thanks thanks to sihao, datou, my best friend. heh. i awoke this morning to see a sweet message on my phone from him. he probably sent it to me cause ah wells. he wanted to for all the advices tt i'll given him(: hahaha. hmmm. but from this am, he doesnt know how touched i was to see such a message to know tt im not alone. he probably sent it to me out of courtesy, didnt mean it. whatever. i dont really care. but he brightened up my day with this message. (: it might have been a god given instinct this morning. whatever. i dunno. i just really wanna thank him for tt 5cents and for the message to let me swing my legs over the bed. he might nv know much much it means to me. but nvtheless. thanks thanks thanks datou(:
oh wells. i better wash up and go. just get outta here. it isnt heaven when only me and my perfect little daddy ish at hme.



(2:43:00 PM)

so im apparently blind too. HEH. xP tts another adding to the already long name lists and long suanings coming my way soon. doesnt matter if you all dont get it. wasnt meant for you all to anyways(:

(2:08:00 AM)

SHIT. its 1.30am. and i havent started on any fucking work. fuck it. im kinda screwed now. cause like. as i said, i hate myself for not being to get down and finish it instead of cursing here. but hello, its the time of the month and i happen to be sleepy so. understand(:
and now, i conclude tt next time when im on the phone, i wont on the com or be online. its distracting and gives me the cramps and the headaches. besides, i cant concentrate on the person on the line with me. so yeah. (:
i admire keith who cn finish his work and send it to me for reference, reference only okay! i dont copy. heh. i shld do tt man. after i blog. promise. cross my heart and hope to die otherwise. hah.
wanted to do a things i hate entry. but i aint in the right mood. the music's lulling me to sleep already.
was quite pissed today. with whatever im not very sure. it probably started with the ping-piang and bongs. so like fuck. went to sembawang but not before we had our ice cream. honeydew(: chyenne was clamouring for the mint ice cream lahhs. and it got us tempted. and boy, do i regret the whole chunk of honeydew tt went down no. the cramps are killing me. but you didnt need to know tt(:
lost my '2' button of my keypad down the stairs at sembawang station. had a hard time smsing especially all the 'haha's and stuff with a,b,c s and 2. darn.
saw fishy at the food court. she was with her mum and joined us after everyone, okay, me, when i almost finished my food. rockery(: then library. was searching for more karin slaughter and the last two MIA sheldon books or we'll finish the whole collection already. bet i was making a fool outta myself in the library by bursting out in peals of, not to mention, loud laughter cuse of the umb lame chop joke on the seal of my rockery cup. damn. cant control one okays! it just had to come out and it did. so, HAHAHA. but anyways, you guys are used to it, arent you? hahaha. so.
laughs were over and tears shed from laughing too hard got wiped away and it was time to go before i realised tt anet and wenqi left. like left. poof. i didnt even know tt wenqi left with anet. so like shit. came with a bunch of ppl but im going hme alone. damn. i hate it when this happens. and moods took a downturn from there. ask ahma. she heard all the obscenities and grumbles. ah. its the time of the month. and im feeling grouchy today. walked up the same stairs tt we walked down about, two plus, three hrs ago when i dropped my frickin button trying to spot it agn. was staring intensely at the granite steps and kicking at whatever remote possibility of my button and trying to ignore the swelling of the balloon tt was gonna burst inside. was almost like i had too much to hold but wells. the balloon deflated when my fat foot kicked something around and guess what? it was my button! like two plus, three hrs ago and its such a teeny itsy thing yet i got it back. probably the commuters today were nice ppl so they didnt kick at my button much. HAHAHA. what a lie. but it didnt land in the sweeper's dustpan!(: heng. then, my moods uplifted. told ya, severe moodswings. HAHAHA.
was exploring ahma's phone with the effects it could do to a picture, mine, when my train and hers passed us before we finally left. cool effects btw, i like the cartoon one(: heh. she was quite shocked tt it had such effects too. see! i have a gift of uncovering stuff which unfortunately includes blackheads and stuff. hahaha. eve and min would know.
fell in a deep slumber in the train when it was approaching yck. cant believe i actually allowed myself to fall asleep, knowing tt i would have a hard time waking up when it reaches amk. so, saw huigun and we walked hme together. both tired, weary and screwed from such a long day. i HATE weds. fuck. such a long day lahhs hello. recess ish like period what? 4? omg. so fucking early. ah wells. no use complaining. xP
hme wasnt any better cause i got into another quarrel with my mum and silent resentment towards my dad. like hello. she threw away my pink V3! okay. sticker on my bottle. but it was hard to get okay. at least ask before she threw which she convieniently forgot to. thank goodness the trashbag was just changed so there was much stuff in it other than some tissues. ewk. BUT, i already practically steralised my pink V3, sticker. and now its on my organiser.
so like, all i did was to tell her to at least ask and she started screaming her head off at how i dont help her and stuff. like wtf? got ticked off too and shot back. duh. there's NO way im standing there to let you scream at me. not my style(: so, the father had to come along and add words till i thought tt the blood vessels in his face were about to burst. two against one. two adults who have almost complete control over my activites, not my life, against me. like hello. talk about fairness here.
then agn, since when was life ever fucking fair?

(1:24:00 AM)

ah fuck. so here i am in the frickin middle of the night pia-ing f&n. damn. seriously. im hating every single minute of the much-dreaded periods in the morning. fuck, double fuck and triple fuck. wait. im just suggesting tt she shld get herself screwed. not tt anyone wants too. i cn hate you but i dont wanna lose and pull down my results. so. i shant get affected by my hate for you(: yeah right.... heh. ah wells. WHATEVER. i know its almost impossible. but dont worry. cause i wont give you the pure bliss of seeing me flunk so badly. trust me on tt(:
i used to think wednesdays were long. but today didnt seem all tt bad afterall. and after much thought. i concluded that wednesdays are long but thurs are pure torture. fuck. ah look at me. i aint starting and its 1.05am. AHHH! i hate my ever constant wavering determination. but i love myself. HAHAHA. okay. i shall finish up already.
its fine with me if you wanna go tt way. you chose to turn and leave. dont blame me for not being there. damn. you turn me off now. with your constant critisms like your ever so perfect. have you ever thought about how anyone would feel? the whole world aint as insensitive as you. to think i was actually even contemplating to even help you along the way and stuff. fuck tt idea now. its my turn to humilate and laugh when you stumble. HAHA. (: watch it.

(12:44:00 AM)