i wanted to continue but sorry! im busy looking for cheers. haha. next time. soon. i'll complete the tonning part. tts for sure. x) love you, ppl!
i watched harry potter today. omg! cedric. HAHA. but too bad, i watched it with two retards. sinhui was pressing on her fone n failure kept making stupid remarks lik harry's specs are lens-less. HAHA. then they said it wasnt nice. SHEESH! lalala. okays. but i enjoyed myself too. cedric! wahahs. choir tmr, then troop meeting. then a/cs rushing time when im hme. RWAHHS! means, no sleeping early tmr cuz i didnt do any a/cs today. n i bet im gonna be dead beat tmr. sighs. im off.
(12:12:00 AM)
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
okays. long entry. beware. lets start frm two grace chalet kays. this ish gonna be long n kp-ish. so. leave now while u cn. HAHA. whatever.
TWO GRACE O4 CHALET `O5.
Day One, 1511.
was supposed to reach amk mrt at 2.3o n meet cheyenne, fishy n mel. but me n fishy were down for school service. of all the days. cn u spell suay. couldnt find miss eugenia lim so rotted outside the staffroom for so darn long. when miss lim finally came up, we were told to go down to the general office to wrap present for the staff dinner. okays. so we wrapped. i did it quickly n skillless. heck. then left at 2.15. we took around 1hrplus cn! rwahhs. nvm. then rushed back hme n found out tt melly woke up at 2.45 when we were supposed to meet. so i met cheyenne first while fishy n melly met later. dropped at pasir ris wher we bought ice and icecream n cheyenne's daddy drove us to check-in. the car was filled with groceries. seriously. lik. woah! kays. got the keys then we drove to chalet i. n found out tt it was super near the busstop. lik right behind. haha. went in to check the stuff n unloaded n bye, cheyenne's daddy! checked the kitchen stuff while waited for the rest. cheyenne was looking frantically for the meters lahhs! haha. n our aircon reading was a few more than the number they gave us. reported. DUH! if not we hav to pay. HAHA. smart ppl. so. xp they all arrived first while me n cheyenne gobbled up 5packets of maggi, curry instant noodles. HAHA. yeahs. i was famished. then, i was bloated. haha. hmmm. n we only added a little more water. so it was super salty! x) yums. wahahs. fishy n mel came then we sat around n left around 6.45 after finishing a small portion of phebe's dad's fried beehoon. HAHA. i was still bloated okays! haha. met chunfu, jack n reagen at citylink. oops. we were late by around. half an hr? HAHA. failure wanted to throw his shoe at me while reagen was pissed. he was lik, wah lau kailing! everytime go out with u u every time late one lehhs! dun care, dinner u pay. n blah blah blah. HAHA. this time not my fault kays! fishy oso bu she de go. n i improved. i think. wahahs.
went to marina square's foos court for dinner. pretty view frm the smoking area. city lights n everything. woah. n it was 8plus n first time i didnt need to rush back hme n receive wher r u's. YAYS!
okays. leave it first. im talking to ******* now. OMG! wad a bastard. as keith said. god. how cn he do tt? wth. hypocrite. flirt. he totally contradicts himself frm the past. wth. damn it! i aint gonna care. keith ish on the line. i shall pay attention to him then. continues chalet story tmr. byes darlings. n yes. i cant believe it myself too.
(12:46:00 AM)
Sunday, November 13, 2005
okays. this ish turning out to be a nightmare. a horrible one. my parents r lik. being freakin biased. im supposedly grounded after the chalet n training camp? FUCK! lik as if im at hme wil do my maths liddat. hello, in case ur screws r loose, this ish the FREAKIN HOLS MAN! going back for school for two endless weeks r enough n now, i hav to do maths assesments before doing anything at hme. n im being hurled abuses at. n i hav to do everything at hme. lik fuck it cn. icant even go out. cuz my brother topped his level n his class. so im the disppointment at hme, im the bloody idiot, im the useless one n im the one hu's gonna go to ite, i talk cock, im wasting their money n im a fucking arse. credit all this to my dad. yays. wad a motivator. damn. i cant wait to break free. all this cuz of a fucking F9. use ur brin or ish it too screwed up to think? i didnt want tt F9 too. what about my As? if a F9 caused me all this, then my two A2's shld bring me at least a year of peace. so fuck you till u cn think properly. or till ur not tt screwed. alrights. thank u everyone for being dere for me for my endless tissue supply n fishy as my shoulder when i broke down on friday. thanks. i think i cried for everything tt happened to me tt day. the feelings tt i failed my maths, handover n everything. everything tt i failed at n in. yes. it was out. but i think tt im getting emotional. i feel lik spilling at every little thing now. SHIT. control. im so not gonna be a crybaby n demote myself to the same level as denise man. fuck. okays. im super vulgar. but my life's seriously turning into a bad nightmare. it seriously sucks. n suddenly, im looking forward to getting outta this house. chalet's in two days. YAYS? okays. yays. im getting out. HAHA. training camp. YAYS!!!! wahahs. jian fei. lalala. n those hu keep saying my life sucks n i dunno why im born all this shit stuff, try mine n u'll noe. exorciam of emily rose tmr with yuenchen n fishy. YAYS!!! wahahs. finally lahhs. looking forward. HAHA. looking so forward. rwahhs. n they made school to be in a better light. fuck it. trust me. its tt bad. i get screamed at the same thing everyday. n my dad just refused to iron my pe shirt. lik wth. n my mum said tt he doesnt iron my brother's too. i bet he licks my brother's boots or something lahhs. n she tol me not to be jealous. HELLO! look at his school n mine man. n my dad said dun think so highly of yourself. the most ur scool differs by one or two points. WAKE UP. my school's cutoff point tt year was 233, his ish 19plus. a few points? i guess tt explains y i screwed maths up. his studies consistant? if u consider watching tv n doing work consistant. lik wth. okays. enough. im getting wayy too vulgar. it aint worth it. wells. went to the "job interview" with fishy n failure. then esplanade then marina square then candy empire. yays. cam whored. i think. i aint in a happy mood now. so yeahs. lets keep it at dere lahhs. the raffles place macs was pretty. lalala. im too fucked up to think straight. so. nights people. n i hope tt i wont complain this much the next entry.
(2:28:00 AM)
Saturday, November 05, 2005
changed my blogskin. HAHA. i think it's nice. wahahs. something different for a change. the background ish black. SO. if u want to read my past entries, please highlight them cuz the past background was white so the fonts r dark. yupps. aniways. if denise ish talking about me on her msn nick, the *a**l**, you know what u did tt makes everyone hate u. me, i loathe, despise, look down and am disgusted by YOU, denise lee. go ahead and whine to everyone man. n lets c if anyone fucking cares about u, if they do. great for u, too bad for them. ask me if u wanna noe what happen. with loves.
(6:59:00 PM)
okays. this page has been rotting in tt bar below for about an hr le. IM SUPER LAZY TO BLOG CN! wahahs. okays. i was late for extended class, as usual.but heyy! it rained this time. so not entirely my fault right? RIGHT! HAHA. so when i reached took the lift down, still with fears. thanks to daniel n failure. n reached the void deck. it was pouring cn! lik omg. n i forgot to bring an umbrella even though my dad left it on TOP of my bag. HAHA. okays. nvm. so i was just running n running in the pouring rain tt didnt seem to lighten up cuz i thought tt once i got to the bus stop, it wont b tt bad. at least it had shelter. so, i ran all the way to thew traffic light only to find tt i was stuck right dere. without an umbrella. so it was me, the crying sky and the vehicles. SO IT WAS LIK, WTH! so. i started to go hysterical, HEYY. anyone cn do tt. i was stuck alone in the centre with the traffic light in the RAIN cn! yupps. i went hysterical. i started reasoning with myself, okays. talking to myself. HAHA. i went, IM SO FREAKIN SUAY. IM STUCK HERE IN THIS FREAKIN RAIN WITH THIS FREAKIN TRAFFIC LIGHT AND THE FREAKIN CARS. SHEESH! WAD A FREAKIN SUAY DAY! HOW SUAY CN I GET MAN?!!! then, out of nowhere. an umbrella was over my head n i was lik. WOAH! magic. wahahs! nwahhs. it was this guy and he asked if i had to cross to opposite and i said yes. n we both stood dere in silence waiting for the pathetic traffic light. n i started hitting the button on the traffic light frantically. yupps. the sound was just, bang, bang n bang. HAHA. kays. it aint tt funny then. it was mortifying cn! a guy has an umbrella n i didnt. lik WTH! it finally turned green n we had to cross, DUH. he walked darn freakin fast! serious. i had to practically jog to keep up. gosh. PAISEH! we crossed n he had to walk straight n i had to turn. he turned around n stared n i just said thanks, bye. n ran off. WAHAHS! it'll b embarrasing for him to offer his shelter to the bus-stop. so please. i'll rather get wet. i was already soaked to the bone so it didnt realllyyyy matter, tt much lahhs. HAHA. n guess wad? when i ran off, the rain cleared. OMG!!! i was seriously cursing the freakin weather lahhs. AHHH! how suay cn i get? gosh. n yes, ms chong n xiaoli was on the same bus s i n they gaped at the state of me. i bet i looked lik a drowned chicken. HAHA. not tt skinny though. saw eugene goh n chongzheng in the canteen n we went up together. sneeked into the girls n i saw a horrifying sight. the black was visible. so, AHHH!!! DARN! it aint my lucky sb afterall. SHEESH! so the three of us went up n yes. it aint tt embarrasing to hav someone with u when u r late. =) wahahs. boring day in school, as usual. with the exception of accounts of course. HAHA. it sucks lahhs this lesson thingy. im bored of it after three days. sheesh. suddenly, im so looking forward to the chalet. cuz it signifies the end of this boring two weeks n i wont be at hmr for the daily finger pointing n nagging n arguing. so. yays? whatever. n yes, im in the same group as denise. WTFUCK?!!! nvm. its okay. the anti-s. yeahhs. i cant wait for the camp. wahahs. if she thinks tt she's gonna get me, sorry darling! n nwahhs. it wont work. we wont he hao if tts the reason we're together., it'll make me hate her more. but i got to hav professionalism. i'll talk to her, ONLY WHEN ITS NECCESARY. lik my anchorman or throw the rubbish. WAHAHS. kidding. im nice, but not to her. professionalism. i still hav cy, anet n nic! HAHA. 29NOV, PLEASE! jian fei oso cn! haha. yays. camp, camp, CAMP! to cy: we're fated. HAHA. erms?
(12:42:00 AM)
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
okays. for once. i dont noe what to say. n the worst part ish not tt i dont hav anything to say. ish tt i hav TOO much to say. its overwhelming. im afraid. tt i cant tak it soon. but its hard to say it out. cuz i dun even noe wad im feeling. n i wonder if it ish pure *e*l*u*l* or it ish because of our close bond. great! an hour just passed and im still left clueless. okays. we filled in yoshinoya's forms today. the pay's pathetic but somehow i dun mind. its better than going around jobless, penniless. SO. i rather start. but he didnt say anythin. n rose didnt answer. WTH. ohh. n guess wad? my bro had to top his class n his level. WTF!!!!! great. suddenly, im getting scolded for every single pathetic thing tt happens in the hse lahhs. the cloth drops, its kailing's fault. she didnt place it properly. the sink's area ish undergoing a flood, its still kailing's fault. she doesnt clean the area after she uses the sink when i obviously hav been sitting in front of the com for the past three hrs. i get screamed, screeched, knocks on heads and vulgarities. i get looked down and despised. kept close tabs on when i nv use to receive wher r u's in 4 in the afternn. n suddenly, i get screamed at to do this and tt. clear my room when i just did it. come hme n c half of my room thrown away. everything cuz of a F9 in maths. gosh. wth man. i really dread returning hme. i hear myself being critised for being a good for nothing when i wake up, and before i shut my eyes. i get scolded fucking arse just cuz i used the fone for not more than 1/2 an hr. n guess wad? my fone's free incoming. so wads the problem with it man? all this just cuz of an F9. this ish super f-ed up man. y isnt tt parents dun recongise the gd grades, they dun notice of the a's. they dont praise. all they do the whole day ish to nag. im sick of it. me getting rebellious? ,u>WHATEVER. slap me, hurl abuses, go ahead. cuz i dun giv a FUCK about u. ur methods of motivation are SO passe. wadever makes u think tt i didnt work hard? whatever makes u think tt i wanted a F9 for myself? yes. im lousy. im stupid. im brainless. i'll retain. i'll retake my o's cuz i failed the fucked up maths. im such a failure. be ashamed of me, go ahead. im giving u the green light now. cuz even im not ashamed of myself. y in any rights shld u b? get this into ur screwed up brains before u hurl abuses at me once agn. im SO looking forward to tmr. esplanade, melly, eve, fishy. my sugars!
