aces rehearsal 2dae. itx ok lahhs. but. failure got pissed off. hmmm. nvm. itx over. kelly's a major bitch. i seriously pity kahwee. n i feel tt wad samuel ho said ish correct lahhs. but wells. love ish blind huh, kahwee. sooo. guess we're not fit to make comments. spat loaddsa saliva on cy's face. HAHA. cuz she gave me a shower of blessing ferx. wahahahas. PLEASE! x) bahhs. hmmm. standing on table. worried tt i do wrong lorrs. n yiyuan said i shook my **** too much. so. im gonna change the way i do it. practice in front of the mirror later. haha. went for dinner. n came back. bahhs. fell alseep for 2hrs. now i cant sleep. great. soon lahhs. chatting to failure now. abhhs. 2moro waking at 5.3o? AHHH! morning call please. NOT FRM FAILURE! x) haas. jiayouus le. praying hard for 2moro. haas. byes darlings. shall upload some of ur pics. x) THE NICE N FORMAL ONE. =)
THE NOT SO FORMAL ONE. FEATURING TWO MEINUS IN FRONT! x) hees. sorry lahhs.
THE ONE TT SHOUTS "WE'RE SO IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER!" NOT TO MENTION GAY. HAHA. BUT WAD CN I SAY? WE LOVE EACH OTHER THIS MUCH. =)
IN SHORT, I LOVE HPT HEAPS.
(12:57:00 AM)
Monday, August 29, 2005
itx 3.30 n im still awake doing my freakin evaluations lahhs. wtf. n we got a meeting with shannon n winnie 2moro, nwahhs. this morning. bahhs. hmmm. sooo. im onto the last one. gues wad? im sleeping with my mum tonight. wahahahas. JEALOUS??! haas. i bet u r. itx been a long time since i slept with my mummy. haas. so. i get the big comfy bed n the thick blanket tonight. ohh. n the aircon's on too. hees. laas. DONT B JEALOUS! x) morning call in the morning. thankks fishy, my meinu. haas. I MISS HER TRUCKLOADDS! lalala. back to my evalution on how the scrambled egg/sunnyside up n omelette tasted like. wad cn i say? they're eggs. just more interesting ones. right? okaes. byes darlings. im in a gd mood. haas. n i just sent a message to failure. lets c if i succed in irritating him to wake up. but i doubt it lahhs. HE'S A BIG HEADED FAILURE-ISH PIG! haha. okaes. byes. x) i miss u too.
(3:29:00 AM)
Friday, August 26, 2005
bahhs. im lik. super siianx? haas. must do evaluation n mindmap. mindmap 2moro. but evaluation? bleahhs. later ba. aniways. had aces rehearsal 2dae. then a meeting for handover. n suddenly. im made the head? erms. i dunno if i cn do it. i want a smooth one done for them. i mean lik. they deserve it. so i suddenly felt stressed. n the hpt unite thingy didnt make me feel better. so i shall do my best. haas. IM GONNA DO IT WELL! yays. aniways. contact popular 2moro. yupps. settle everything by saturdae. haas. im gonna prove it to shannon. wahahahas. so. im still stressed. bahhs. jiayouus ppl. sooo. went for dinner wif failure aka chunfu, sinhui[yarhhs. u didnt c wrongly], brenda, vanessa, reagen, wilson n daniel. kahwee went n left. then we went to the voiddeck n chatted a little. nwahhs. cant b classified s chatted. shld b crap. wahahahas. left at around. 9.45? hmmm. now crapping with failure. bahhs. byes. aniways. I PASSED MY MATHS! thankks for being dere always. for helping me n seeing me thru everything. hearts to all: heaps of love. cyas darlings.
(12:20:00 AM)
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
fine lahhs. im lik. freakin bored. lik wtf lahhs? i come hme. i get kp-ed. fcuk. lik. i dun really enjoy being hme lahhs. n i receive those irritating "where r u" n "why not home yet". FCUK U LAHHS! dun treat me lik a maid around here. i ur daughter. not a born, free maid. fcuk. so sick of it. bahhs. i try to stay away so much as possible. fine. so. i guess the best thing tt happened todae was the aces day rehearsal? had fun. forgot about everything. okaes. not excatly everything cuz tt person was dere giving me tt face but i didnt care much. YAYS! ahahas. went for dinner after tt. sat dere for quite long. they [ failure, sinhui, char(she rushed here for cloths) n brenda] went to buy cloths with char. so me, jack n wilson sat dere with gary, colin n valerie. haas. cant remember wad we talked about other then tt g-spot thingy which they all refused to tell me. bahhs. cyas. byes. praying for my maths. hard. i just wanna pass. please. tell u the tears or smiles 2moro. i probably shldnt feel so sad about myself. but i've heard about enough about me. fat. ugly. everything. i've heard it all. but wads most hurting tt it came out of ur mouth. tt helping thingy. wad was i thinking? seriously. fcuk. i hate myself. bahhs. so much tt im losing self-confidence in everything. im not even sure if i cn carry off the aces day teaching during pe. darn it. i knew tt u liked her. not confirm yet but. i just hav a gut feeling. u noe. aiyahs. forget it le. frens would be better. i guess? fcuk lahhs. i hate kailing. do you? i bet you do. frens would be lucky enough for me. frens ish all we're gonna be. brainwash to not to care. brainwash to forget you. brainwash to get you outta my mind. brainwash to forget you. i said. i hate kailing.
(11:10:00 PM)
; dont call someone a BITCH when you yourself are one ; dont JUDGE people on what they wear cos people JUDGE you ; dont think that your perfect when the FLAWS are on you ; dont call someone a SLUT while taking slutty pictures of yourself ; dont brush DESPOS if what your wearing attracts them ; dont deny who you are cos that's just so LOW ; dont jump into relationship just for the FUN of it ; dont try to erase what's DONE take responsibility ; dont pity yourself when everyone HATES you and you know why ; dont be surprise when you find yourself HATED when you toy with your friend's boyfriend * just look at yourself and say "CHANGE"
[RIPPED FRM CARYN/KAILYN'S FRIENDSTER PROFILE. credits to her. thankks.]
have nothing much to blog todae i guess. kinda boring. went to j8 after school. went to swensens[ nwahhs. i didnt gain back my lost 1.5kg]. walked around. almost falling asleep. bahhs. boring. aniways. zhu got so many daes of dc! wahahahahas. cuz he's late. 2dae. AGN! ahahas. last fridae oso. hilarious. hmmm. tts about it i guess. im feeling better too. personal note to shimin: JIAYOUUS in ur chem kaes? dun let ppl kan bu qi. haas. jiayouus! x) aniways. got ok results ofr the papers tt i got back. praying hard for my maths. cyas.
(12:27:00 AM)
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
i realised how bad im changing. lik frm bad to worse. im getting pissed at every single thing suddenly. i wanna apologise to all the twograce darlings for looking at this face for the past few weeks. sorry. especially eve lim. sorry if i made u nan zuo ren. sorry. but please understand tt im just more sensitive? cn put it tt way ba. n to victor goh n most of the twograce guys: i dun appreciate the name calling. fcuk u very much. im changing. give me time to. im changing to be ignorant n insensitive to ur namecalling. i will. n i shant care. i shall do it n not say but still feel sad about it. n to tt person which i mentioned on my earlier blog entry, im learning to let go of our friendship. n im starting to. i carried hopes this morning thinking tt maybe there would be a better way out of this but. i guess letting go of our friendship would be the best and painless way. itx really painful to see ur "gd" frens turn against u one by one. to my trusted frens i hav now [namely eve, fishy, min, cheyenne, wenqi. all the twograce darlings] : so please dun giv up on this friendship. n i just wanna tel tt person. since u've decided to give up on our friendship. im just doing the same. it'll help us. probably. n dun worry. i wil shu yuan the both of u. since he thinks of me tt way too. yupps. this has been a negative entry. been thinking alot ever since i read tt entry of hers. so. once i click tt publish button. goodbye to both of u. goodbye to my negative attitude. goodbye to my sensitiveness. goodbye to everything bad. hello my new attitude, cheery attitude. i shall facing 2moro with a smile.maybe not at u when at the meeting. u shall be dere in this world but not dere in my eyes. cheerios ppl.
(12:01:00 AM)
Sunday, August 21, 2005
okaes. went jogging then met eve for swimming. then ate dinner at macs[eve] n left to meet fishy at sembawang to go library. sorry meinu. made u come out for such a little time. sorry yeahhs? wells. i came back n tot i'll start on my f&m. but i got distracted by the com n did a little blog surfing. n guess wad. i found tis person's blog lahhs. then i started reading it. kaes. she might not b talking about me but i juz got a hunch. i mean lik. three of us used to be gd frens. n she mentioned the other person's name oso. so itx lik. both of them lahhs. fine lahhs. i dun really care about it le. u cn think of wadever u want of me n i dun fcuking care.u cn say tt i cant b trusted n look out for me n blahhs. but in case u didnt noe.i didnt freakin once blabbed out ur secrets to anyone. sheesh. i dun even remember what u actually told me cn. n all of a sudden im a big mouth n backstabber, hycocrite? wtf? this really hit me hard kaes. so no wonder u were so cold to me. i thought tt we were gd frens. but it seems tt i was wrong. u really dun make a gd fren huh. maybe u were just making use of me. i dunno n i dun really care about it. u cn hu leng hu re. n itx me hu's a backstabber n everything? we cn b so close on dae1 n strangers by dae2? wtf man. n suddenly u hav to watch ur back in case i backstab or blab out ur secrets? n all of a sudden im the bad guy when i didnt do anything? maybe i got close to those ppl hu u dun like which i dun remember already, fyi. n i dun remember doing tt. we lost contact for such a long time n this had to happen? i guess ignoring would do the trick this time. n please. dun accuse me for things tt u thought i did, u heard i did but u didnt even ask or find out if i actually did it cuz itx seriously hurtful n sheesh. i dun giv a FCUKED up damn about it already. maybe u aint my fren n i aint ur fren anymore since u dun care. so if u dun, why should i. right? RIGHT.
(10:47:00 PM)
Thursday, August 18, 2005
okaes. im lik. hme le? saw yesterdae's entry about being hme early? scratch tt. 2dae's real early. no one wanted to go for group study cuz it was late n blahhs blahhs blahhs. aniways. im seriosly afriad tt i fail my maths. i cant afford to fail. i cant. i lost 13marks. one inverse question, 5marks. graph de last ques, 3marks. two y=ax tt one, 2marks. n the tangent one. fcuk. i knew how to do it de lorrs. guess wad. i got the correct answer. but in my hurry. i was left wif one minute. wad u expect? i did it the other way. s in x2-x1/y2-y1. WTF! i juz realised it after i went over to 3joy. WTF, WTF, WTF. n tt's 3marks. i hope i cn get sum markks here n dere. n i seriously want n need to pass. seriosly. so god. please help me. amen. my f&n. i wun b surprised if i fail. didnt put in my best. fell asleep. TWICE. fine. the red cat's english seriously succks. but i tink tt we were too reliant on miss lim's notes le. yupps. muz learnt to b independent le. kaes. but i wasnt in the studying f&n mood yesterdae lahhs. n todae. kinda sick of it. juz glance thru. i meant GLANCE thru then liddat le. yeahhs. sick of it. my interest ish dropping. i cn juz feel it. n itx cuz of english. ahyi n keith wil understand tis i guess. wads wif the biased n attitude man? dun giv me tt face whenever i ask u things n ur favourites. please lahhs. itx obviously tt ur juz biased cn. wadever. im studying for myself. not u. u aint tt nice after all. kaes. i dun care. didnt hav a gd dae at school. bad s in bad. so mayb my black nike sb aint tt lucky. done. sealed. hav loadds on my chest. blahhs. n im bored. hitting a/cs n physics books soon i guess. blahhs. last dae. ren. jiayouus ppl.
to huever u r. congrats ur obviously smart to c tis. or mayb all of u wil. dun read on if u tink tt im super kp. n i advise u not to cuz u'll juz side wif the opposition. so i rather u not read. if u do. dun come n tel me how fcuked up im n tt they're nice ppl. FCUK U if u do tt. i made it clear. dun come n tel me. aiyahs. he dun mean it de lahhs n all tt fcuking bullshit. I DUN GIV A FCUK. cuz i've heard enough of tis FCUKED UP BULLSHIT. change his tinking. tok to him. get it thru tt thick head of his before u come n speak to me. get it? okaes. so wtf lahhs. y am i the only one hu sees the bad side of him? or mayb im the only one tt he hates. fine. he aint top of my favourites list too. but cn he b less hurtful n crude wif his words? especially in class. i wun b surprised if i start to hate my class of of him. no. both of them. so wad if i failed my physics n either u or yuxuan got the same marks s me? so wad? itx my problem right? n i hereby swear tt i'll got well in physics if tt's all it takes. im not trying to make u lik me back s a fren. actually. i dun xi han oso. but it would b better off tt way. duh. but dun u come n critised me about how fat i am, how stupid i am. stop giggling lik wusses whenever im nearby.itx FCUKING irritating fyi. both of u cn b sharing a secret about me. wad. fats walking n wad. earthquake or wadever the fcuk ur toking about. look. i dun really care about ur childish n immature remarks. i dun care about wad u tink about me kaes. yes. im fat. but at least im making an effort to lose it. n i'll make sure i'll do it to let u get the last laugh. i spent a whole lot of fcuking time during recess over tis. being pissed off before it came to me tt ur not worth it. y shld i? ppl hu does tis aint worth it aniways. n worst still. im being critised by sumone hu cant even keep his own girlfren. U GOT PLAYED. major. so fcuk off tak ur fcuking comments along wif u. tink about y u got played before u come n comment about me. so wad if ur a handsome bball player? n im sorry but i so dun agree. i aint gd looking too but u commented on me so im getting back. so wad if u r hilarious n a joy to the class? so wad if ur name comes out frm everyone's mouth? LOOK. I DUN CARE. I DUN FCUKING CARE. it doesnt giv u the excuse to talk about me. cuz itx insulting to b insulted by a loser. n yet. no one shares my tots. he seems to b an angel frm heaven. god's gift to mankind. perfect. FCUK. dun u ever understand the feeling when u finish compliaining n tt listening ear juz nods n changed the topic? or says. erms. i tink he doesnt mean it de. u noe him. everythin's a joke. blahhs blahhs blahhs. or juz says. aiyahs. dun care about him lahhs. wth. so i choose not to say. itx juz plain fcuked-uplish. i tol u i was bored. blahhs. byes.
(6:46:00 PM)
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
okaes. im lik hme le. itx the earliest tis week. i ssriously need group study. ahahas. but i didnt sutdy juz now when we were at macs. gonna hav maths tution in a few minutes time n then i'll study f&n. so i juz let myself relax for tt little while. been up late till at least 2am tis whole week. didnt even get my afternn nap. guess itx an accomplishment huh. wahahahas. ohh. she's here. gtg le. byes. x) jiayouus in maths! IM GONNA PASS! i dun care. with love, me.
(7:24:00 PM)
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
hmmm. hadnt been online for quite some time. been busy studying. bahhs. BORING lahhs, but wells. ren till fridae. haas. okaes. had bio todae. a little stressed up suddenly.itx 8plus n i havent got to studying much yet. my weakest subj 2moro. hist n chinese. gawd. freak. im wasting time. im lik. bored n tired of studying. which also means tt i've to sleep at 2plus n i cant wake up in the morning during lessons lahhs. n fishy wil keep poking mi n hav a super hard time lahhs. sori meinu. wells. went to buddy hoagies wif cheyenne, eve, wenqi n shimin. anet joined us later. hmmm. eve took a women mag n started flipping thru cuz we were eating n she wasnt due to some wellknown reasons. n she had her mocha shake aniways. sooo. she saw some sex things n i dunno how but everyone got a mag n started reading those horny stuff n making stupid jokes outta it. ahahas. it was hilarious. wells. started revising a little. i said tt i wasnt in the mood. switched between chinese to hist to chinese. siianx. read a little hist. a little. yupps. hmmm. late night agn. sighs. then I FORGOT TO PHOTOCOPY THE HISTORY NOTES!! ahhh. fcuk. okaes. aniways. me n cheyenne started on sumthin. yeapps. determination wil get us dere darling cuz we hav each other. ahahas. our aim yeahhs? results soon. =) ohh wells. went to the bus stop n saw tis malay couple. the woman had her arms around his neck but he didnt hug her at all. u would hav tot tt they looked sweet frm far. near. nwahhs. nowhere near. okaes. tis ish how it goes. the girl was lik. screaming at the top of her voice lik. " NO! U DUN UNDERSTAND MY PAIN! DUN DO TIS TO ME, BABY! UR THE ONE HU DUN UNDERSTAND ME. THE PAIN ISH KILLING ME. ITX KILLING ME U NOE?" blahhs. n it gotes on. itx lik a drama series. i was lik. looking around n c if there were cameras lahhs cn. ahahas. n i was leaning against the pillar to c the gd show. LOL. the guy was utterly embarrassed. majorly. he was looking around. even trying to pull her arms off him but she stayed. she was bigger than him btw. then he was lik. "shhh. shhh. okaes. calm down. shhh." HIALRIOUS. ahahas. i dun need watch tv le. ohh. aniways. so the WHORE diiaos me lahhs. so wad. okaes. i dun care. seriously. i dun even feel lik diiao-ing her back. or saying sum spiteful things. i guess she's not even worth it. so how low cn she sink to. she practically worthless. tsk tsk. pathetic lahhs. okaes. speaking of the whore. i wanna show her my results. study time now! x) byes ppl.
my heart cheered, i beamed, my heart raced when you uttered tt few simple sentences to me. it aint much but it was, to me. it mattered, you matter.
(8:22:00 PM)
Sunday, August 14, 2005
blahhs. got woke up by reagen's morning call tis morning. got to sheery's hse. i was late s usual. did a little here n dere i guess. met the others, eve, vanessa, clarinda, fishy, nichola, wilson n swee koon at macs. discussed. did a little ss. couldnt concentrate. shannon came at 6plus. discussed more. went to buddy hoagies wif clarinda, sherry, nichola, swee koon, wilson n reagen. studied a little ss. off to study more now. meeting cy at amk mrt at 11? morning call please. thankks. im sleepy but i wanna read thru ss. blahhs. tis ish such a boring entry. n i cant find the website for the gifts. bleahhs. study more 2moro. jiayouus le. n i mean really study. yes. we cn. bahhs. muz pass my combined humans. nwahhs. actually. muz pass all. wahahahas. okaes. byes. itx late.
(1:47:00 AM)
Thursday, August 11, 2005
hmmm. 2dae aint a veri nice dae i guess. got insulted by losers hu **** **** **** ***** *** *********. fine. im so over tt le. shant elaborate on it. juz tt i deserve better than to be insulted by losers n wimps lik tis. fine. went to buddy hoagies wif eve, min n fiona after school. i wanna study dere. seriously. i lik the ambiance dere. ahahas. veri study lehhs. hmmm. me n min ended up chopping up carrots n stealing frm fiona n eve's finished plates all the junk lik fiona's fish, fries n eve's veges. wahahahas. it was kinda entertaining. guess i cheered up frm the bus stop incident. yeahhs. thankks yeahhs, eve. ahahas. for ur lastest entry. n aniways. dun tink so much about tt paisehh incident lahhs. i tink tt wen yiyuan said it he probably didnt tink it thru n it came out tis way. n juz call it quits lo. since the kh thin n now tis. yupps. n since they didnt do anythin so. yeahhs. let them disiao lo. juz tak it s kind hearted entertaining lahhs. ahahas. they'r bored ppl. ohh wells. dun tink so much lahhs. n yes. i seriously need sumthin presentable for the handover. n speaking of handover, we better start le. hmmm. saturdae's near. fine. one dae later. wth. JIAYOUUS LE, sherry, eve, wilson, reagen, kailing! LOL. aniways. i got the fotos for the sec three adventure camp le. shall post oni THREEi pics. cuz we're worth it! x)
(11:30:00 PM)
Friday, August 05, 2005
ahahas. yays. im back. my blog has been lik. rotting lahhs. so yeapps. im here to update! duh. wells. kinda stressed up nowadaes lahhs. i guess itx cuz of the nearing of the common test ba. my maths n chi seriously succks cn. -sighs- im trying my best to do well. really. i juz wanna pass my maths. i dun wanna fail anythin no more. fine. wadever. i'll do my best. aniways. I PASSED MY FERX EVER MATHS TEST TIS YEAR! wahahahas. thou itx kinda impossible to fail but im glad tt i passed. yupps. itx graph lahhs. hees. im seriously happy lahhs. i didnt tink tt i could pass cuz of kahwee. but she marked it thou she said tt she wouldnt. wells. im glad. =) ahahas. 14/2o. hmmm. ferx time i passed. ahahas. let me xiang shou awhile lahhs. =) ever since the start of tis year. LOL. i wan tt creative zen neeon oso. hees. fine. time to shut up. okaes. im lik. currently hooked, hooked, HOOKED on zhan shen. thou itx super horny -rolls eyes- but. hmmm. i dun c hopw anyone cn not fall in love wif tt show. haas. fine. im slow okaes, wenqi. x) mmmm. im gonna finish it le. disc11 le. sori anet. i deprived u of watching it ferx. sori. hmmm. the songs rocck oso cn. n yeapps. thankks to shimin for rang wo ai ni lyrics. thou i cant c it but. thankks. aniways. DA YE ISH SUPER CUTE!! ahahas. he's so cutee. LING ISH SUPER. i dunno which word to use but yeahhs. they juz roccked the show lahhs. daye ish cute lo. ahahas. fine. im done raving about zhan shen. n now. charlie and the chocolate factory. watched it todae[o4o8o5] wif eve. haas. NICE SHOW! i liked the effects lahhs. they made everythin seem so real. the story's kinda heartwarming too i guess. CHARLIE'S CUTE! haas. willy wonka ish freaky-ly cute too, i guess. n i liked charlie's grandparents too. LOL. tt show ish worth watching. serious. next on my list, red candy n the maid. ANY TAKERS? i'll b waiting. x)
